3:15pm - My Godmother, Lin Wong, passed from her earthly existence today.
My Khai Ma, as we say in Chinese, was overcome by the same situation that took my mother. She had developed breast cancer and endured chemo and a masectomy. Soon after the doctors discovered that the cancer was highly aggressive and took over her lungs.
The entire family is in an overwhelming state of grief and pain. More than eight hours worth of tears and heartache.
When we were in the intensive care room paying our respects after she had passed, I closed my eyes and in front of me I saw my mother arm in arm with my Khai Ma. They were both smiling and waving and nodding to me that everything will be okay. I felt so much reassurance then, knowing my mom has company, my Khai Ma is safe, and they are both watching over all of us.
Rest In Peace Lin Wong
We love you so much.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Monday, March 24, 2008
Spring Break Idleness
Day 1 of spring break and all I want to do is lay around and watch tv.
I've used up so much physical and mental energy this semester that I just want this one week to be lazy and do nothing. Although, at the same time I want to do so many other things. I've got four film projects lined up that I need to get moving on, I want to continue painting, I've got to attack the house with full spring cleaning force, and I really want to start up the Reaching Higher Consciousness Book Club with Sarah and Arthur, beginning with Eckhart Tolle's A New Earth.
The weekend leading up to spring break was quite eventful on so many levels:
First, my dad had an appointment scheduled on Friday 3/21 to have cardiac catheterization and angiography performed on his heart. His doctor came to the conclusion that my dad needed to undergo a procedure to see if anything was wrong with his heart. After waiting at the hospital with Steph for six hours, it turns out that he had two major blockages on the left side of his heart. The doctor working on him put in three stents to open up the arteries, which hopefully added several years to my dad's life. If we had waited any longer, my dad might have had to undergo open-heart surgery. This was stressful enough, I don't know how I would have handled that. Daddy had to spend three days and two nights at the hospital. He's home now and doing well and didn't feel any pain throughout and afterwards. Bless his health.
I have to confess that throughout this difficult time, I couldn't help but imagine what would happen if something went wrong. Questions and scenarios kept bombarding my mind, like how do I organize a funeral? How do I contact everyone that knew my father? I have to put school on hold. I have to get Jeff back home from England. The most threatening and painful question was how am I supposed to live without my dad? I had to go through it once when my mother died. I was only twelve. He is the most important person in my life. I hate thinking that way. Thank you God for letting him stay in my life longer. That sounds so selfish. I also hope this event will help my father to enjoy life and experience more while he still can.
Second, my cousin Maryanne and her fiance Ryan had their engagement party that same night. We all thought we were there celebrating their official union, but they had another surprise for us: a baby due in September! Our family is so desperate for little ones running around that no one expressed concern that this child will be born out of wedlock. Who cares these days? We obviously don't. Anyway, they've been together for about five years and Ryan's proven that he's a good guy. Their baby will be added to the extensive list of September birthdays in our family, including the baby's mother and her two sisters.
We'll see how the rest of spring break goes. If I have my way, by the end of break I'll have one finished painting, watched the ice melt into waterfalls at Starved Rock, taken my scooter out for a spin, and have a neat and tidy house.
I've used up so much physical and mental energy this semester that I just want this one week to be lazy and do nothing. Although, at the same time I want to do so many other things. I've got four film projects lined up that I need to get moving on, I want to continue painting, I've got to attack the house with full spring cleaning force, and I really want to start up the Reaching Higher Consciousness Book Club with Sarah and Arthur, beginning with Eckhart Tolle's A New Earth.
The weekend leading up to spring break was quite eventful on so many levels:
First, my dad had an appointment scheduled on Friday 3/21 to have cardiac catheterization and angiography performed on his heart. His doctor came to the conclusion that my dad needed to undergo a procedure to see if anything was wrong with his heart. After waiting at the hospital with Steph for six hours, it turns out that he had two major blockages on the left side of his heart. The doctor working on him put in three stents to open up the arteries, which hopefully added several years to my dad's life. If we had waited any longer, my dad might have had to undergo open-heart surgery. This was stressful enough, I don't know how I would have handled that. Daddy had to spend three days and two nights at the hospital. He's home now and doing well and didn't feel any pain throughout and afterwards. Bless his health.
I have to confess that throughout this difficult time, I couldn't help but imagine what would happen if something went wrong. Questions and scenarios kept bombarding my mind, like how do I organize a funeral? How do I contact everyone that knew my father? I have to put school on hold. I have to get Jeff back home from England. The most threatening and painful question was how am I supposed to live without my dad? I had to go through it once when my mother died. I was only twelve. He is the most important person in my life. I hate thinking that way. Thank you God for letting him stay in my life longer. That sounds so selfish. I also hope this event will help my father to enjoy life and experience more while he still can.
Second, my cousin Maryanne and her fiance Ryan had their engagement party that same night. We all thought we were there celebrating their official union, but they had another surprise for us: a baby due in September! Our family is so desperate for little ones running around that no one expressed concern that this child will be born out of wedlock. Who cares these days? We obviously don't. Anyway, they've been together for about five years and Ryan's proven that he's a good guy. Their baby will be added to the extensive list of September birthdays in our family, including the baby's mother and her two sisters.
We'll see how the rest of spring break goes. If I have my way, by the end of break I'll have one finished painting, watched the ice melt into waterfalls at Starved Rock, taken my scooter out for a spin, and have a neat and tidy house.
Friday, February 29, 2008
Springtime, come and stay!
Winter used to be my favorite season, but dog gone it, I've had enough! I want springtime with flowers blossoming, birds chirping, sun shining, bright sweaters, and I want it now!
Friday, February 1, 2008
Must Let Go
First of all, I would like to welcome myself to the world of the online journal. Personally, I prefer a more private format such as my lovely leather-bound paper journal. But as my blog title suggests, this could be fun!
I decided to start up a blog because my boyfriend, Mike, seems to be very fond of his. Also, my brother, Jeff, is settling into his two-year contract working in England as an Airman in the U.S. Air Force. I'm trying to encourage him to start up a blog so he can document his experience over in the U.K. Through my blog, I hope to keep him updated on what's happening with the family back home.
I am a film production design student at Columbia College and I am starting to get serious about my work. I don't have a proper work space in my house, so I'm trying to clear out part of my bedroom to make room for Jeff's desk (sorry Jeff! I should ask you first if I could borrow your desk, but I really need it now). My room isn't a pig sty, but it isn't neat either. I've been a pack-rat all my life. I hold onto everything for the sake of memory. I must let go of some things, of MANY things! Most of what I keep is junk, but I always have this idea that I'm going to need it some time in the future and if I throw it away, I'll regret it later.
I also have hundreds of dollars worth of Mary Kay products that I need to get rid of. I signed on to be a Mary Kay consultant in the fall of 2005, thinking that I could really make a business out of it and be the most successful 18-year-old in town. It hasn't worked out for me so far on several levels: 1) the demographic that is most available to me are my age and can't afford Mary Kay products; 2) college is not a suitable time to run a business, although some may beg to differ; 3) I keep building my inventory without selling anything. I'm not giving up, but I never have time to devote to building a clientele. I just want to sell all the stuff I have now, even if I can't make full profit. This stuff has been sitting in my room for too long. Will someone please by makeup from me!
Bringing Jeff's desk in will force me to organize some of my belongings and get rid of some junk. Hopefully by the end of this semester I will have an organized living space free of clutter and useless items.
There. My first entry in my brand new blog spot.
I decided to start up a blog because my boyfriend, Mike, seems to be very fond of his. Also, my brother, Jeff, is settling into his two-year contract working in England as an Airman in the U.S. Air Force. I'm trying to encourage him to start up a blog so he can document his experience over in the U.K. Through my blog, I hope to keep him updated on what's happening with the family back home.
I am a film production design student at Columbia College and I am starting to get serious about my work. I don't have a proper work space in my house, so I'm trying to clear out part of my bedroom to make room for Jeff's desk (sorry Jeff! I should ask you first if I could borrow your desk, but I really need it now). My room isn't a pig sty, but it isn't neat either. I've been a pack-rat all my life. I hold onto everything for the sake of memory. I must let go of some things, of MANY things! Most of what I keep is junk, but I always have this idea that I'm going to need it some time in the future and if I throw it away, I'll regret it later.
I also have hundreds of dollars worth of Mary Kay products that I need to get rid of. I signed on to be a Mary Kay consultant in the fall of 2005, thinking that I could really make a business out of it and be the most successful 18-year-old in town. It hasn't worked out for me so far on several levels: 1) the demographic that is most available to me are my age and can't afford Mary Kay products; 2) college is not a suitable time to run a business, although some may beg to differ; 3) I keep building my inventory without selling anything. I'm not giving up, but I never have time to devote to building a clientele. I just want to sell all the stuff I have now, even if I can't make full profit. This stuff has been sitting in my room for too long. Will someone please by makeup from me!
Bringing Jeff's desk in will force me to organize some of my belongings and get rid of some junk. Hopefully by the end of this semester I will have an organized living space free of clutter and useless items.
There. My first entry in my brand new blog spot.
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